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Wednesday, March 16, 2011

The Weight of an Imp...


Nighttime version

Have you ever had the feeling when you are just on the brink of sleep that there is a weight upon you and that you want to move or say something or scream but you are physically unable to do so? There is the moment when you feel as though an unseen oppressive force is holding your entire body down and stifling your voice such that you cannot escape nor call for help. It doesn't happen to me very often, but it is definitely not a pleasant experience. The reason this drifted into my mind is that I came to realize... this is how I have been feeling in my waking world... in my life. Of course though, it is nothing so dramatic or freaky, but nonetheless to a certain extent.... still frightening.

Daytime version

6 comments:

thormoo said...

I almost wasn't going to comment because the coincidence is so striking...Oh Yes, I've had that very feeling but only in the last few months since I've gotten sick. The first time was really frightening because i felt like I couldn't breathe. It has probably occurred 3 perhaps 4 times since and those episodes have all been more subtle, like a dream sort of. To the point I wasn't sure if i was conscience and really experiencing it or it was in my head.

Anyway SG, it is a tad FREAKY that you have pointed this out. Now I'm not sure if your truly psychic or not?! Hmmm perhaps yes...

Ryan said...

Could be an Imp, maybe a partner climbing over you on their way for a drink, more likely to be sleep paralysis which seems to be pretty common.

Spockgirl said...

Ryan:
Yes... I had read about Sleep Paralysis many years ago, but having an imp sitting on your chest just seems more romantic. Heh.

Spockgirl said...

T:
I think that you have so MUCH crap wrong with your body and so many things that you are processing in your mind that there could be a number of reasons for this to be occurring now. Regardless, it does happen. (See, Sleep Paralysis as mentioned in the other comment.)

In regards to the FREAKY factor, I would have to say that there are many, many parallels in people's lives that we don't often get to see, and in the one year that I have been blogging, I have come across three that have remarkable similarities to me, or me to them, even with the vast difference between upbringing and life events.

thormoo said...

SG-I learned long ago that backgrounds, upbringing don't really affect the way we feel and act emotionally.I think that is our humanity shining through and ultimately it is what keeps us together as human beings...are shared experiences: physical, emotional, psychological and spiritual. At least my experience has shown me that. Everyone id different too and has their unique way of processing stuff.

I was goofing about the freaky and psychic thing but the point is absolutely valid...we humans relate to one another on a level that has nothing to do with our class up bringing or anything such as that. That was a realization, early in my recovery that gave me a real shock and ultimately helped me to stop isolating and reach out to others. that has played a huge role in how things have turned around.

I realized too, long ago that upbringing doesn't mean as much as people think..I was raised in an upper middle class Christian home and went to college yet that has nothing to do with alcoholism/addiction. Some people never get over that and it's sad...

I think our personalities often have more to do with it then our physical surrounding growing up. I could always relate to people from many different backgrounds like race, different nationalities, etc...I think that really helped me in the long run. I see it all the time with new folks in recovery..the sooner they forget where they came from and focused on what they were feeling...the better their chances were for growth. But many refuse to see it and it messes 'em up. That is just my experience i'm sure other folks will see it differently and thats OK too..whatever works. Good post!

Spockgirl said...

T:
Ah... there goes my brevity again.

The matter of ubringing, life events, background, environment and other outside influences as they effect the development of an individual is part of the equation, but as you demonstrated, would require a much bigger space.

In my reference to parallels, upbringing and life events, I narrowed my very expansive thoughts on the matter to a couple sentences to fit within the confines of the comment box. I should clarify that the "remarkable similarities" of which I spoke ARE what IS freaky about the whole thing, and would be fascinating to explore. My thoughts on this were more on the "effect" rather than the "cause", but of course, both merit discussion and consideration.

Hope you are feeling a bit better today. At least the sun was out.