Greetings from Spockgirl Musings, where logic rules, but the frailties of
human nature, genetic inadequacies and hormonal imbalances wreak havoc.

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

The only telling sign...

... is how both mentally and physically tired I am with no exertion whatsoever.

Monday, September 11, 2017

And then I realize the day...

"It's the little things that kill 
Tearing at my brains again"

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

My great big fat summer vacation...

In a couple weeks I get to have my chest-bone sawed apart and my heart opened up and fiddled around with. This is a wee bit more worrisome than having had my eye sliced open and fluid sucked out. Even though I was awake for that.

Monday, August 28, 2017

Such is the nature of conversations...

"I ask you a question for which your response allows me a glimpse into your personality."

Friday, August 18, 2017

I do...

I want to write. I feel like I have things to say. I just can't seem to formulate any coherent thoughts.

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Shivers down my spine?

I swear there is no breeze... no wind.. no one there... but the cymbal moved as if someone brushed past it.

Sunday, June 11, 2017

LIfe after 50...

Just over two months ago I turned 50. In celebration of this fact, I had yet another scan, an ultrasound, a sleep apnea test (which I knew it wasn't, but they had to rule it out), more bloodwork and an angiogram. Next up? Heart Bypass Surgery. Five blockages, two of which are 100%. The damage has been done, and there was no point in just doing stents. So after almost a year of all these tests, this is the outcome. When asked a somewhat odd question by a friend, I responded with "Not too keen about it, but the other option would be death, so not really much else one can do."

So this shall be my summer vacation.

All I can say is... so much for not smoking or drinking all my life and for being active through most of it.

Monday, May 29, 2017

Wherever I may roam...

It got a little sweaty out there today, working in the yard in the morning and then this evening, as well as the walk to the office and home. I was running out of clothes to unsweatify in, so went to look for something comfortable to slip into. The other day, I had pulled a storage box from the closet which had summer clothes in it, so went to see what I could grab from there. Peeking out from a ziploc bag? Concert t-shirt... Metallica... I recall it was May... but what year? Turns out it was 1992... 25 years and 5 days ago... Crazy.... doesn't seem that long ago, but also seems like a lifetime... I had cut the sleeves off when I first got it, but the fabric is in great shape. Perfect.

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Lights go out... by one...
the voices once so strong...
lost forever in the howling wind...

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Bring this beauty to life...

I would love to have a copy, but sadly cannot afford it at this time.

Please support the creation of this beautiful book here.  

Friday, May 12, 2017


Day 10
I find myself firmly planted in a place called home and I feel completely lost... yet again...  Against my better judgment, I am spending money I do not have, on a Passport, in order that I may go on a trip I cannot afford, to a destination I know not where.

Monday, May 8, 2017

From a favourite 10 cent comic book...

to this...

There seems to be an entire generation of females lamenting the fact that there were and are no positive role models for girls. Sorry, but I got mine from 10 cent comic books and books I read. In looking back, Wonder Woman and Mlle Marie were the two that stand out from my childhood. It is rather funny that in the past I did not think that I actually had any role models. I did not even realize until now, in my 50th year, that these comic book characters were pretty much it. As a teenager, of the sci-fi/fantasy books I read, it is the ones with female characters as the protagonist that made the most impact. The other funny thing? I didn't want to look like them or emulate them. It was the content of their character.

Thursday, May 4, 2017

Ram... D9

Day 9

I discovered late yesterday that although I had been doing Sudoku puzzles - "evil" -  almost every day for at least four or five years, I had no clue... whatsoever... how to do them anymore... at all... and it has only been just over two months now that I stopped. 

Tuesday, May 2, 2017


... starting to happen again...
... as well as the penny showing up in the middle of the table...

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

One Hela Movie...

Little kid kinda excitement ...

Monday, March 27, 2017

Ram... D8

Day 8

I had it wrong. I am going to have a MPI, not MBI. Myocardial Perfusion Imaging is what it is. I hadn't looked at the full name on the sheet. Radioactive dye for the third time in eighteen years. I just realized that now. Interesting tidbit.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

A half century?

That is some sort of milestone?  I suppose I shall celebrate... by going to bed ridiculously early, because I am ridiculously tired. 

Friday, March 24, 2017

A grievous transgression...

... usually punishable by death...

I had walked back into my bedroom and saw him on the bed. I am not sure where he had come from nor where he was going, but I take it that he had not received the memo. I decided to give him the benefit of the doubt and looked around for something with which to usher him out of the room. There did not seem to be anything handy, so I picked up a small decorative footed bowl which I hoped would be sufficient. Well... he went in willingly, however I got less than halfway down the hallway and he escaped, to I know not where. 

It has been clearly stated... you can be in the house trusting that you fulfill your duties, however you cannot be anywhere near or on my bed, Mr. Spider.