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Monday, May 2, 2011

Blank Slate


Sitting here tonight with my eyes closed and my head resting in my right hand, my mind is completely blank. No thought, no feeling, no memory, no song, no word. But I am still breathing... my ears ringing... my heart beating. Everything falls away until there is nothing. For once there is no sadness, there are no waiting tears, there is no sense of overwhelming sorrow. There is nothing, and tonight... tonight I am glad of it.  For a moment my hands were clasped together and I looked down at them, losing myself in the space between spaces. Time seemed to slow down... to stand still... to draw itself out. Tonight in that moment, in this moment, I cherish this nothing that I am for it is ... my peace.

4 comments:

Noah Bawdy™ said...

I LOVE nights like that. Just the sound of my own breath and at peace with the world.

Spockgirl said...

Noah:
It's been a while since I was able to get to that place without the accompanying crap.

Noah Bawdy™ said...

It captured the few times I've been able to sleep peacefully, perfectly :-)

Spockgirl said...

Noah:
I've written a few times on the blog about my issues with sleep. Not all very pretty, and for that reason was hesitant to post any of them at first.