Said goodbye to Grandma today. The service was held at the Ukrainian Orthodox Church and was, as expected, a traditional ceremony... chanting... incense... warm.... beautiful. While awaiting the burial at the cemetery, I strolled up a small incline where I saw this beautiful piece of statuary enclosed within a boxwood hedgerow. There was just something about it. I didn't notice then the crimson blooms in the foreground. Sad... beautiful... cold. As I look at the picture now, it came to mind that I believe she and her husband had been married for 55 years... if he were alive today, they would have been together for 74.
I actually voluntarily hugged people today.
I made it through the service and the burial without any tears. It was only during Auntie S' eulogy at the gathering that followed when I felt tears welling up in my eyes. Of course I did not have any tissue with me and had to use my fingers. As usual I had been trying not to cry. Still doesn't feel right... this crying in public... don't think it ever will.
I actually voluntarily hugged people today.
I made it through the service and the burial without any tears. It was only during Auntie S' eulogy at the gathering that followed when I felt tears welling up in my eyes. Of course I did not have any tissue with me and had to use my fingers. As usual I had been trying not to cry. Still doesn't feel right... this crying in public... don't think it ever will.
Posts
2 comments:
I don't care what you think ~ the next time I see you, you are getting a big hug. We all handle our grief in different ways. I hate how it tugs at your heart strings bringing on a mixed emotion of disbelief, dread, and overall sadness. I love the photo of the statue, it's really beautiful. You found something lovely on a sad, cold, dreary day.
Hey J!
I don't need a hug.. seriously. I am just NOT a huggy person. It is kind of like the cat thing.I am more pensive than mournful.
Post a Comment