Light...

Heh... too funny... in and of itself, as well as that it came up today.

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Darkness...

I sat here in the dark with tears streaming down my face. I knew daylight was fading but hadn't realized that the house was now completely dark, illuminated only by the light of the laptop screen. My ears ringing, the soothing sound of Rush in the background. To read someone else's words and find that they are me... I closed the laptop and sat here in the dark with my forehead resting in the palm of my left hand. The pervading, persistent thought, like the ringing in my ears... I don't belong here.

There are some things I shall not forget to remember...

Today (yesterday now) in the U.S. was Memorial Day, which is more akin to our Remembrance Day (the date which used to be known as Armistice Day, but in the States became known as Veterans Day).

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I have not been much in attendance here and have not had much interest in the activities which used to fill my time. I fear sometimes that I may be losing my mind. Not as in going insane, but rather losing more of the memories, thoughts and data that used to fill it. It is somewhat like I have unwittingly done so by letting go of superfluous information in simplifying the way I process things. Oddly enough, I do now, however, remember things that seem to be closer to my heart than my mind, such as this.

 

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To honour the fallen since last time:

US (Guam (2), California (6), Massachusetts,

      Kansas, Oklahoma, New York (2), Idaho,

      Texas (2), Oregon, Colorado (2), Hawaii,

      Virginia (2), Kentucky (2), Washington,

      South Carolina (2), Pennsylvania (2),

      Tennessee, Puerto Rico, Florida, Indiana)

UK (4)

It may well be...

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Is it just me?

This song started to play and it reminded me of something else.

Giggles...

"Two Chips" / An Animated Short from Adam Patch on Vimeo.

Yes, it cracked me up ...

Indeed...

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One step at a time...

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Trois part deux and un trois...

Sequels that I will in all likelihood enjoy watching a great deal... (Yes, I had fun with the title.)

 


Red

How sad is that...

Nothing has changed in my life. The blog isn't being neglected due to a busier schedule, getting a life, or a deeper struggle. It's nothing... nor anything dramatic either. I think I stopped wishing for things a long time ago. I mean... really wishing for things... dreaming of things... wanting things. Maybe I just never did. Things like when you're a kid and you're asked, what do you want to be when you grow up? What do you dream of doing? Where do you picture yourself in twenty years. How about just expecting things of life in general? Getting married, having kids, taking a summer vacation. Things like that. Nope, none of it. And that's kind of sad in a way, but I just never thought about it.

 

I think I'm going backwards. The only thing is... life doesn't work that way.

 

I should have taken more than just the two vacations in twenty-two years. I should have taken more time off to enjoy life when I had the money. Woulda, shoulda, coulda... Ain't that the way.

 

Now? At this point in my life? I'd just settle for taking a mini vacay in Vegas to meet some blogger dude. Maybe I should take up a collection. How sad is that... 

Haven't found it yet...

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