I stopped listening to music. Music was a lifeline. You can't be alone without music. 

I remember...

 9 11 happened the year after mom died. I remember I was standing in the living room when the news came on the TV.

Shopgirl

When I go get coffee at McDonalds, it's just walking to get coffee at McDonalds. I realized a short time ago that when I'm walking back to the shop after getting a specialty coffee downtown, I kinda feel like "Shopgirl" in You've Got Mail. Of course I am fully aware that I am simply anonymous Spockgirl struggling alone in small town Canada. That being said, it doesn't hurt to see the parallels. 

Boisterous applause...

Just because...

I may have posted this before, but whatever... (Brought me to tears when I heard it the first time too...)

Same as it ever was...

Funny that this came up today...

Wha?

Apparently it has been 10 years today since I started this here little blog. It is still little, and I am still alive. I've met one blog person in person, but that is because we had begun corresponding via email, after which I joined the ranks of Facebook probably 8 or so years ago, and we met in 2016, which was pretty dang cool. His blog has since died, but we still communicate on a regular basis. Life  remains the same. 

Holy Shit...

I googled the blog name to get here and this post came up. All I could say was...

The funny thing? Today I felt like I was back there again... almost... except now... Mahjong, and I don't think my environs and life in general have ever been in this much disarray. 

Hold on...

Tater tots...

.. and chocolate...

Been a while since I watched something new. Or had anything to say...here...

Musings to nothing....

Not a good sign when the most frequent visitors to your blog for the day, week and month are from Russia or the United Arab Emirates. Also not a good sign when your last blogpost was one month ago to the day.  I don't know. I thought it was a good idea to keep the blog alive, but that becomes a wee bit difficult when you barely feel alive. Spockgirl barely muses about anything anymore. 

Nuts...

... nuts I say...

100 years

It was supposed to be the war to end all wars, but do not break faith that there will always be those who raise their hands to carry the torch. Lest ye forget.

I forgot how much I loved this song..

and singing Eddie's part in the quiet of my room...

The first twelve beats...

entered my brain, and then the words came back...

I don't know why...

Walking to dad's this evening, a song drifted into my head, and I started singing quietly to myself. "Tin can at my feet, I think I'll kick it down the street. That's no way to treat a friend. Bright before me the signs implore me, help the needy and show them the way. Human kindness is overflowing, and I think it's going to rain today."

... and then...

A fine line...

Walking home tonight, rather glad it was already dark, as small tears began to well up in my eyes, with the permeating thought, "I don't think I can do this." Immediately following that, I then wondered... should it be, "I don't think I can do this on my own."  I realized shortly thereafter that there is a very fine line between those two sentences. 

Time goes by so slowly...

It's happening again. It's been a while. It's eerily quiet too...

Sooooooo...

... tonight a song popped up in the fast food joint I was at with my sister, and we both knew said song, or at least were both familiar with it. She insisted that she had heard it on a mix-tape made by one of her friends in middle school, which would date it to the mid-70s. I said... um... it was from Foreigner "4", from the early 80s...  I said "You can google it." So she did as we were sitting there. She could have sworn that it was on that tape. I remember that I actually had that album.. maybe even on vinyl...

Oh... so... when I went to google the song to look for a link, I also looked quickly at the wiki article... and whose name did I see as a member of Foreigner? Something I did not know... Thomas Dolby... on synth... I had actually seen him in concert when he went solo. Go figure... He was actually the opening act for these guys...